We all talk about getting caught, about making decision, Luna Moon talked about it, everyone talks about it.
We've lost several important bloggers in the past few weeks, and "getting caught" is always high on the list of suspected reasons, thought I don't know anything for sure.
What triggers it? What gives us away?
For me, because my blog is the only real evidence, since most of my indiscretions are on-line, it's going to be the MMS, or Mystery Mood Swing.
Take today for example....
I have been playing with a friend, and, after some flirty back and forth, she went silent, for two days. Now, in Internet-time, that's like, what, a month? It bothered me, I thought we were having fun, our time zones aligned well enough (I know when bedtime in Europe is, I expect you to go to sleep eventually), her husband was gone, the kids were asleep. It shouldn't have bugged me, but it did. So here's the thing, it put me in a funk. It wasn't a bad day before this, so about an hour after I realize she's not coming back, my wife asks me, "What put you in such a crappy mood?"
"Well, this woman I was undressing and getting ready to cyber-bang just up and left!" I can't really say that now, can I? So I have to come up with a lie, not about being caught, but about the MMS. It is especially difficult for me, now that I'm home all day, to blame work, friends, bad traffic, or my awful boss. I always had a built in reason to be in a bad mood, no explanation required. All I had say was, "Traffic" and all was forgiven.
I don't have those excuses anymore.
So what do I do? I internalize, I keep it in like all the other emotional ups and downs and times when I had to bite my tongue and move on. Some days it goes the other way.
I met up with a friend the other day on Skype and the 1st thing she asked was, "How much weight have you lost?" It made my day! it was better than her answering the phone naked with Stoya nibbling at her nipple (well.... maybe not, but, you get the point). So, this wonderful compliment put me in a great mood and I had no way to explain it. I had been home all day, so I had to wait until the next day to exclaim! "Hey, a friend noticed that I had lost some weight and it was sooo cool and....."
You get the picture. The Mystery Mood Swing can pump me up or bring me down, but I have to be be really careful with the "What? But you were so horny this morning......"
It has been very few times when my on-line play has taken away from in-person play, since that only happens 2-3 times a month, on good months, so, if I think anything is going to happen at home, I plan carefully, let's just say that some days I'm the giver, sometimes a taker, but it's all about keeping things on a steady keel at home. Avoid complications and breaks from the norm, or, if my on-play time was enough for one day, just keep her up late catching up with Desperate Housewives and offer to do the dishes while she gets in to bed. Works every time, and I'll be ready for the next time.